past, we often played "Black Peter". In the picture he was smiling as a chimney sweep always so friendly and waved out of the map. I was taught that the Chimney Sweep bring happiness. Why do you lose with this card so obvious? A much better fate had my favorite card. She smiled as friendly and was loved by me dearly. I can still see the image exactly in front of me. A beautiful woman with long blond hair, high above the circus ring. She is wearing a purple suit and holding a blue umbrella in his hand to the balance on the rope to hold better. But fear has they do not. Without it balances security in high altitudes on tiptoe - even a death-defying leg stretches on its own - and looks at me from the map to fall as happy as she could never. So I wanted to be.
In the 5th Class I had to find that even the balance beam me overwhelmed. Oh, I could balance out to finish my long program. Twist, squat, stand scale. But even the teacher was astonished how much it shook the bar under my feet. I was trembling with fear. So much so that the entire gym apparatus never rested, but the uncertain movements of my legs took over and around the world, in this case, my class, my fear of ruthless eyes led. I was glad when I finally had solid ground under their feet. At that moment, my dream died by the rope dance.
Now he is awake again. With many old dreams that I've worn over the years to the grave. If you are resurrected, but distant than ever. I want to soar as high, but I'm so firmly rooted in the soil. No flights of fancy, more practicality. Never do what you can not reach, never fight a losing battle, never jump. But without the jump, you can not fly. I like to dance on the rope, no power only with a blue umbrella in his hand. But I dare not climb up the ladder. My legs are heavy as lead, held back from resignation and rationality. I dream of flying and dancing, from hovering above it all, escape the gaze of others. I'm down, lay my head back, look up and wonder if I'll ever dare. I have no fear of heights, fear not even the case. I know that one second there would be worth up even the most painful fall. There is something very different which keeps me on the floor. But what?
